Questions thrown into the void

So are you happy with your life? Yeah I know you are.  You are earning a lot.  You 'seem' independent with your life and choices.  You are probably already thinking that you are in the best phase of your life.  But are you? Are you the one who you wanted to be?  Don't say me that you always wanted to grow up to be an employee of XYZ company with the ultimate aim of growing rich and having kids! No! The person you wanted to be in your childhood has died long back and you didn't even mourn at his funeral. But let me tell you something, dear friend,  that guy is going to come back well of course as a ghost to haunt you.  He will stare at you when you would be old and bed ridden.  You can't escape him,  not even when you close your eyes to take a moment of rest. He will haunt you even more probably with a memory of your childhood. He will ask questions. He will blame you for his murder.  Oh yes! You murdered him, did I forgot to mention that? Slowly over years. Tearing away his every strength and existence.  So isn't it obvious that he was going to return to exact revenge on you, haunting you till the day you finally confess that you had lived a false life!  And in your deathbed you will quite clearly see the child you were from a long time back, staring at you with utter disappointment while you close your eyes with tears and shame.

Random

I have come here out of utter desperation ! Well you see I am in a position in my life that is seems enviable to others but is in fact quite miserable to myself. I have no idea what's going on in my life at present nor a hint of what's waiting in the future. But I am holding onto a past that is very dear to me. When I say "The past" I mean some lovely moments with the people I love and care about. But now I find that past being threatened by something that I am not even aware of. I find myself at the edge of happiness and entering something that seems gloomy and uninteresting. I had a dream once ; to become someone the world knew and admired. Till now I don't seem to be anywhere that dream . I find myself in a herd of people who would rather prefer the money over their dreams and am ashamed of myself. I have a only a few days before this change and I can't do a single thing about it.

Happyness

Yeah the one with a 'y' rather then 'i'. I have always liked the movie "The Pursuit of Happyness" .I believe it still is the best movie of Will Smith . It is said that we are in pursuit of happyness ever and that no one ever stops in his pursuit. But what does happyness mean ? Very each one has a different idea of being happy . Some say that recognition is happyness while others say solitude. Some say friendship is happiness while some say its your family . But what does happiness mean to me? I don't know exactly .I have sudden bursts of euphoria and at the other times gloom of darkness . Those sudden bursts are so random that sometimes I , myself seem to be confused why I am so happy. Then I remember. Its when certain memories kick inside your mind. Memories so strong to even reject the present and create a fantasy. Those memories last a minute or an hour or a whole day . But what are those memories? Your childhood memory that made you appreciate the child that was once you? Or the one where you achieved an unusual success and unknown people wishing you with a smile ? Or perhaps a simple incident that helps you forget the complexities of life? Well you know the answer but perhaps need a kick to refresh those sweet and happy memories ! :)

Nothing

Just as the title indicates  I have nothing much to say ! Well then why bother you with all these nonsense then ? Probably to make something out of this nothing thats why. People usually have so much say but no one to say to . My case wouldn't be any different. Speaking out when no one out there is listening. But one should always try they say. As you can see the time since my last post you would be wondering what has gotten into me to write this post . I wanted to try out something today but probably won't succeed . See you soon